Living the life of a Jane Doe nurse who had always heard crumbs of her Portuguese and Nicaraguan family history. The author embarked in the year of the fire horse to research about this interesting but buried history. Having enigmas about the whys of her mission in life and having become a Grand Master Karuna Ki Reiki Healer and instructor.  My political science degree taught me to write with a purpose. And fulfilling the dream of real involvement in the acting and modeling industry since age 16. Learning that a lot of my Portuguese family history was about erasing a Matriarchal Aristocracy where the Queen archetype was solid. Sending a message of survival, resilience and soul. The crown that is visible to our soul but not to others. The challenge of the pandemic taking me out of my nursing profession because I was born with an autosomal recessive genetic blood clot forming disorder. I chose life over my livelihood and it hurt me and my family but just made us bounce back better and stronger.